But sometimes I feel like it cost me my sanity and what do you do when you’ve had enough? Unfortunately for me that usually means explode to the wrong people.

I will always be very appreciative when anyone has shown me even the smallest of kindness. The world is full of cruelty and sheep’s in wolves clothing. Everyone has an ulterior motive…even me. But I would never be unkind or vindictive to get what I want.

So that’s why it’s so hard for me to understand when people change up on me without cause. Like, was it something I did ? I think I’m a pretty amazing person, I make sure the rent gets paid on time, make sure everything is tidy and try to be respectful of the property of those around me. So why, why, why must some act like monsters?

You’re probably lost, as I realize I probably have gotten ahead of myself. You see, all is not going well in Jailand. Noooo, its not my marriage, H and I are fine (well as fine as we can be under the circumstances). But we have a light at the end of the tunnel so this period of (I don’t even know what to call it) is just temporary.

So just to catch you up what’s been going on…it would appear our angels in disguise are in fact the opposite. Maybe not demons, but money definitely makes their world go round.

First it was a set price for the rent bi-weekly. They then charged us an additional 50$ for a building key , fine. We were in a jam and still very appreciative of the fact they opened their home to us. Then they raised the rent an additional $150 due to the increased “electricity” bill. Okay, not sure how that’s possible being we are at work all day but ok. Then 2 days before its due reneging the original agreement demanding the entire amount! To top it off, now they want an additional $20 per week to clean the bathroom?

It wasn’t bad enough were still in the living room with only some curtains for privacy? That someone keeps going into our area and touching, opening and eating our things? But now to pay so much more for less than we were promised? No.

I know we look well off but we’re not. I buy my clothes in “Rainbow” just like you, most of my jewelry were gifts, we scrimp and save and use Groupon to have date nights. And sometimes eat Ramen noodles for a week when we have to.

So please don’t ever think I’m unappreciative by refusing to just agree to everything. We simply don’t have it for what we’re receiving, please don’t ever think because I’m less fortunate than you that I’m unworthy of kindness and deserve whispers behind semi closed doors.

And I’ve no one I’ve got to prove myself to except the woman in the mirror. I…we…me and Him (H) have proved time and again we are more than capable of picking up the pieces and building an even stronger foundation.

So here’s to us my love 🥂, and on to the next journey that awaits us.

And I apologize to anyone I might explode and have a crazy tantrum on (Sorry to the lady in McDonald’s and to my husband) you were both “mostly” innocent bystanders.