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Monday Madness

Monday Madness

by Queen Pea👸🏻 ♥ 2 Comments

Monday madness + zero sleep + uncontrollable anxiety =A very cranky woman.

It’s Monday, the day of the week I usually reserve for new beginnings and fresh starts…the opportunity to let go of whatever might have happened the week before. But sometimes it isn’t that easy to let go.

I hate when old anxieties rear it’s ugly little head. Today is one of those days where I have little control over my emotions, not having slept doesn’t really help, neither does the weather.

I know that most of my fears lives within my own head, you would think that would be the easy part, but it isn’t. I can still find some way to manifest it all into my own little reality.

H has been great, kind and patient with me♥️. But even that causes my heart to go into high alert. Why do I have to be so jaded? Not every act of kindness is designed to pull the wool over my eyes, that I want to close so badly right now and finally get some sleep.

Anxiety, it won’t win today. I don’t want to give up any of my energy today, so instead I’ll focus only on things I can change. Like getting through that pile of mail on my desk or trying to find a cheesecake recipe that doesn’t require a mixer.

Monday’s are for new beginnings, but Tuesday’s bring us closer to the weekend. One day closer to everything I ever wanted.

Happy Thanksgiving🍁🦃🍽

Happy Thanksgiving🍁🦃🍽

by Queen Pea👸🏻 ♥ 1 Comment

How was your thanksgiving? We celebrated Thanksgiving with my family and even though we’re all a little kooky, at the end of the day we still have each other. As usual it was an amazing time filled with tons of laughter (egg roll?) and love♥️.

The holidays are not a festive and happy time for everyone. There are some people that really struggle with this time of year whether it’s financial reasons or they may not have any family close by and feel alone. We may be so caught up in our own lives we may not even notice.

If you know someone who is going through an especially hard time please check up on them. They may feel as if they don’t want to burden you. Let them know it’s okay. If you can, maybe include them in your holiday plans or even just something as simple as a phone call or text to let them know you’re thinking about them.

I hope your thanksgiving was filled with good food and the love of family and friends and you gobbled til you wobbled. Til Monday friends.

Taking a Mental Health Day

Taking a Mental Health Day

by Queen Pea👸🏻 ♥ 0 Leave a Comment

Anxiety. I hate when this happens. It creeps up on me like a thief in the night and robs me of my peace of mind and common sense.

This dreary New York weather isn’t helping much either, it’s as if the sky is speaking for me. Saying all the things I’m feeling. But at least it knows what it wants to say. It’s fall, it’s fickle and it knows it.

Unlike me, greeting everything with side eye and suspicion, waiting for the other show to drop. Which sucks, because before yesterday I wasn’t even aware that any shoes had fallen.

I just really need that other shoe to drop.

Hope to return to my regularly scheduled blogging tomorrow.

Jai